Apple of My Eye

Heh people time for another one of 'Apple Of My Eye (AOME)' series. For those of who don't know AOME is a bunch of posts in which i rate the guy whodrive me crazy, usually guys belong to the glamor world but in general the public domain. This time its a true hunkie, a model, anchor and an ex Mr India Viraf Phiroz Patel.



I noticed Viraf in one of the ad campaigns of a Aerated drink in India. As always the smile and his laugh just captivated me.Viraf who has been Mr India in 2005 and has been in many ad campaign but again its this Limca ad which caught my eye , got a little bit of digging and found some amazing videos ,pics and facts about him.

For starters he has been in merchant navy. He did anchoring for travel shows as well, to a part in television series and even a stint in bollywood. Being a model he has an amazing body as well, check the below add something about the not so clean shave body really turned me on ;)



Viraf seems to be an active youtube user, he has some video journals of himself uploaded, i found the one below really cute where he is talking about the last day at the shoot of the television series he was part. You can see the sadness on his face is so obvious , may be he is faking it but with a face like that he can fake anything and i am ok with it ;). You just feel he is talking directly to you.



Aww i would just like to hug him and say its gonna be ok sweety Muah muah muah :) (I wish i could do that :P ) I should stop drooling over him and let you enjoy some pics of him i found. Enjoy ;)

Now to rate Viraf on the Apple Meter , viraf gets himself a sumptuous 4 on 5

Blast From Past - The Dyamics

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Catch the previous chapters of the story here :

1. Chapter One

2. Chapter Two

3. Chapter Three

4. Chapter Four

5. Chapter Five

6. Chapter Six

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The Dynamics

"You know what being a homosexual is  L ?" I asked L half expecting him to answer it in positive. "Its just not about trying to get into a guy's pants you know." i continued without waiting for L's reply."To put it in simple words just a cross connection in my brain about likings and rest all i am normal" i tried with some humor to get some reaction from him. L was still silent obviously trying to digest things. "Are you listening L ?" i asked getting impatient. He just nodded. I continued about explaining to him thats its normal to be gay , its something i was born with and the usual "I am proud of who i am" .


"Can't you change ?" L said , speaking for the first time.
"Actually i don't want to change, i am happy to be what i am."


L again became silent. He did seem to be disturbed."Its ok L, i know its not easy to understand. And i totally understand if you feel uncomfortable around me and don't want to talk to me or keep this friendship going." i tried to console him and praying at the same time that he does not end our  friendship."I don't know what i feel right now jits may be we i should sleep over it , may be by tomorrow i will have things more clear." With that we called it a night 


Next morning i woke up early and left for my home leaving a text message for L to inform him of me leaving as he was asleep when i had left. I was thinking about the events that happened in the last 24 hours and was trying to get my brain around it. Have i done the right thing ? Will L severe his ties with me ? I prayed, hoped and wishes that he will find some way to keep our friendship going.


'I don't care who you are, where you from, what you do, as long as you love me' beeped a message from L. Was L trying to tell me something or just listening to Back street boys track i thought . I called him up. "What message was that ? " i begun with my questionnaire. "Has everything to be too be spelled out to you ? " L said. "I think i now  but i just want you to say it.". L told me that he is ok with whatever i am as of now and he doesn't care who i am but he clarified that he considers me as a brother to him an can never connect with me on any other level than that. I was exuberant that he had decided not to break our friendship and i told him to directly let me know if my talks ever got too much for him. 


Things returned to normal with us , i still hadn't expressed my love for L, i thought to take things one at a time. College continued our talks stretched longer in nights, i sometime even discussed even about a cute guy with him once or twice, he didn't respond to that so i stopped.  Things were going fine for some time but this was just the silence before the storm. Guys in college again started taunting L with my name. I never experienced the taunts because i never used to hang out with the college crowd, but L did and one day L asked me for the second time 
"Jits people are again asking me the same thing, jits tell me the truth are you in love with me ?"


I got a bit panicky, i thought of trying to change the topic but L was adamant, I decided to bare it all now, i confessed, "Yes, L i do love you." and the phone got disconnected ! 

Work place and Gay Friends

Is it really difficult to have gay friends at work ? I actually don't have any problems with meeting guys from my work but it seems the idea doesn't go well with most guys. Apprehension might be there because of the possibility of the other outing you in front of anyone .I  myself being closeted understand that perfectly well but if we can maintain confidentiality then i see no harm in it.

Recently it happened that i came across two guys on the gay net sphere who actually felt very uncomfortable meeting me after finding out that we work in the same company. Although both of them know who i am because i usually give my real name in chats and after knowing an employees name its easy to find anyone on our intranet, but i was not able to locate either of them. Although i feel a friend within or outside my office makes no difference to me but obviously to them it does. One of the guys has now disappared from my chats as well may be he found it too wierd. Anyways hoping that i do run into those guys some time, till them any hunk in my office is one of them for me ;)

Smiles

I recently went to watch a Hindi Movie titled 'Tere Bin Laden' , the movie was ok, did have its funny moments but i actually went just for the lead actor who is a Pop sensation from Pakistan Ali Zafar. I was just spell bound by his smile. When i later thought about it i realized that the first thing i try to take notice of about any guy is his smile. People always tell me i laugh a lot( why shouldn't I afterall laughter is the best medicine :P ) I am not very photogenic so i prefer to have my pics with all the 32 whites in frame and at times i do look good ! Having a cute smile with a dimple on a guy is such a huge turn on for me.(My Mr Perfet you reading ? :P )

      (Ali Zafar)

As a forwarded message i got staes 'Smile a simple curve which can set all things straight'. How true is it even in an argument a simple sign of a smile can make all the anger evaporate. Having a smile just gives out positive vibes around onself and you can see how people around you also stay cheerful. Even in our chats usage of 'smilies' are so common. At least in all my chat sentences i have a smily :) (see i told you !) Nowadays even smiley badges are becoming a fad amoung youngsters.

(A random Cute smile)

In our fast paced life no one actually nowadays cares to take notice around us , i would like to share with you something  which happened with me at work. I work in a firm which is like 4000 employees strong and hence you only get time to interact with a handful of people who are there in your team. My first day at my office was a bit scary for me because i hardly new anyone around and i was just worried about arranging myself an accodomation in the new city. While i was entering office that day obviously tensed and worried about having to settle in the city, the security gaurd at the gate gave me a smile and wished me Good morning. I just felt so relived although i didnt know that gaurd , the sincere smile from him just made me feel welcomed in the new city. He  asked me why i was looking so tensed and even guided me to some brokers to get an accomodation in the city.

So people just always keep smiling and be cheerful :D

Happy Friendship Day

Wish you all out there a happy friendship day...

Friends without whom this life just seems incomplete. To all my friends out there who have been with me through thick and thin , have supported me in sad times and rejoiced with me in those happy moments a Big Thank You !!! Wish you all a very happy friendship day ... Spread the joy people pick up that phone and wish all your friends :)

Blast From The Past - The Revelation

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Catch the previous chapters of the story here :

1. Chapter One

2. Chapter Two

3. Chapter Three

4. Chapter Four
5. Chapter Five

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The Revelation

'Your friend is now going to pay ...... Stop.... You first remove the chain........ your friend is not going to be able to walk .........' wait this is not happening all again, i must be dreaming i thought and then suddenly i felt someone calling my name , my cheeks felt warm as if someone is rubbing them no someone is slapping me, stop it hurts i opened my eyes to see a group of people surrounding me and Mr J was calling my name. I then realized i had passed out because of the bloody scene which had passed before me moments ago, i regained my senses, stood up and asked Mr J where is L, he told me L is under a doctor's scrutiny for any injuries.

"What the hell happened Jits, what happened to you ?"

"Later J, you paid for the auto ? ", J nodded an affirmitive.

"Ok i need to be with L, will explain everything to you later."

"You sure you don't need anything ? you just passed out you know"

"I am ok just couldnt stand too much of blood thats all."

"Alrite, follow me L is with a doc in there."

As i followed J i realized i am going to face one of my worst nightmares, A Hospital. Something about hospitals just freaked me out, was it the smell of antiseptic from the floors or nervous  patients waiting for a doctor or the unfriendly nurses who would scare the hell out of you with Big injections,  i didn't know the exact reason why i was uncomfortable with hospitals but whatever it was i had to put my fears to the back of my mind. L needed someone to be with him.As we reached the room in which L was being examined, i could hear L still moaning in pain.The Doctor came out and told that L is fine, no injuries whatsoever and the pain was temporary just muscle pain and it would pass in few hours or so with some rest.I felt a huge relief, as if someone had lifted a big stone from my chest.J settled the bills with the hospital and we decided to move to L's home as he was given advice to take rest , i was thinking how to tell his parents then i realized no on was at L's home they all had gone for some family event, well at least we have time till tomorrow to think how to tell them.

We reached L's home in an auto and i helped L to his room, J had left as he had some other engagements and promised to be back in the morning, after making L rest on his bed i head for the kitchen , i was starving it was almost 8 in the night and i was sure  L was also hungry, i bought some maggie from the nearby store with whatever i could find in L's drawer and cooked it up. Mr L was asleep obviously tired from the happenings of the day, I tried waking him up but he didn't wake up. I had some maggie to clam my stomach and decided to stay back with L, i called up Grandpa and told him i would be staying over at L's and would be back next morning.L was looking so cute sound asleep like a little baby. I grabbed a magazine and settled down on the floor beside L's bed. I must have been only up for 10 min and i fell asleep.

The events of the day were playing in my mind again and couldn't sleep, when my eyes opened again it was 12 clock in the night, L was not on the bed. Confused i looked around.I went to the balcony and checked , he was standing there looking out into the dark, i could here the waves hitting the shore a few meters away , the ambiance was so relaxing the sea breeze gently blowing and the silence of the night. "You hungry ?" i asked L "There's maggie still left i will make it in a jiffy"."I am sorry jits" whispered L, "Huh ? what sorry ? You feeling alright L", L is still in shock and speaking rubbish i thought."I am fine jits thanks to you, if it hadn't been for your quick thinking my condition would have been worse, i am sorry you had to loose your chain and ring"."Don't be stupid L those things don't matter to me as much as.. " i stopped mid sentence , what am i doing am i going to confess this right now ? "I know, me" L completed my sentence and continued  "that is why i am asking for your forgiveness for that night on the phone". I was surprised with L response he was still looking into the night and not facing me, i went closer to him and put my hand on his shoulder. "L i want to confess something " i decided this was the right time to let it all out.

I poured my heart out to him, i started my revelation by asking telling him that i have always been different from other boys of my age and have never had any good guy friends in my life. I asked him if he knew what homosexuality is about. He nodded in agreement and then i said those words . "L, i am gay"

To be Continued....

Blast From The Past - The Incident continued

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Catch the previous chapters of the story here :

1. Chapter One

2. Chapter Two

3. Chapter Three

4. Chapter Four

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With all the mayhem happening around us in that dungeon sort of place a sudden thought crossed my mind. The goon behind me was pressing me against the rails and i felt the cold tip of the chain i was wearing against my chest. The gang of robbers had forgotten to  have a full body scan in the midst of all the commotion otherwise they would have found the gold chain and a gold ring i was wearing, both a present from my mom and dad for doing good in studies at college. But this was no time to get  emotional with pieces of jewelery. "Stop", i yelled at the guys still hammering down on Mr L."Please wait, i have a chain and ring take it and leave us alone please", i tried begging them so that they would stop hitting L. It worked, i felt the guy holding me letting his grip loose and he asked to me to remove the chain and ring."First stop hitting him", i pleaded pointing at Mr L, "You first remove the chain and ring otherwise your friend is not going to be able to walk you understand  ?" barked the goon holding me down.


I obliged with whatever he was saying, what other choice did i have. The guy holding me snatched the jewelry as soon as i had removed them from my neck and fingers and sprinted back to the way he had come, i heard him yell to his fellows to run back with him, i was relieved they were leaving although a bit confused why did they leave in such a hurry ? Thanking god with a silent prayer i went to Mr L after regaining my balance which i had lost when the goon had snatched the valuables from me. Mr L was wounded, although i didn't seen any wounds outside from the moans of Mr L i could make out he was in a lot of pain."L you listen to me ok, i am going to bring some help ok, i will be back in a second ok" i told L although i was not sure how much of it he did hear, as i was about to run to get some help "Don't go jits... it pains a lot", i heard Mr L's strained voice. "L i know you are in pain, but i need to go and get some help, you understand, i'll back in seconds ok". Then i suddenly felt a vibration in my pocket. It was my phone a forwarded message from someone, i had totally forgotten about the phone in all the chaos and apparently so had the muggers. I quickly dialed Mr J's number, his sister is a nurse i thought may be they can arrange for an ambulance  quickly. I told J that L had been hurt and he is in pain and asked him to get an ambulance as soon as he can to the theater, he told me to be with L and told me he will be with us in 5 minutes.


I went back to L who was still on the ground, i was not sure if i should move him because i didn't know the extent of his injuries.All i knew was, he was in pain and i just couldn't bear hearing him moan in pain. "L its gonna be all right the medics are on their way ok", L was holding his stomach with his hands, i figured since the goons were only kicking there could not have been any broken bones as they were just using their feet. "L i want you to try to get up alright ? i am going to try and pick you up understand ?" Mr L was just in pain and he wasn't listening to me. I felt so powerless not being able to help him.I tried to comfort L with my words but he soon passed out with the pain. Mr J arrived in 5 minutes, "Where are the medics" i asked Mr J."Where on earth do you think we are America ? no one sends an ambulance for a teenager passed out in a brawl ok jits" J said, "Whatever we need to get him to a doctor then", i replied to J , he agreed and we picked L up and got him out where J had an auto rickshaw waiting , L woke up when we got near the rickshaw and asked us to put him down. "Will you be able to walk L ? " i asked him. He nodded and with his arms around our shoulders he  made it to the auto . "My head is spinning " Mr L said climbing into the auto . "Here put your head on my shoulder ok", i told him as i climbed in behind him. I asked the driver to go the nearest hospital. Mr J was following us on his bike.We made it to a nearby hospital, i didn't know where to take him, i had never been to a hospital before. I asked the driver where should i take L, he guided me to the casualty section pointing to an entrance which had the sign ""CASUALTY" written in Big letters over it. I asked the driver to stop in front of that entrance helped Mr L onto a wheel chair which was present in front of the entrance but i had forgotten i didn't have any money with me, how to pay the auto driver  and whatever money L had the goons had taken with them. As i tried to think a way out , i heard an ambulance rush in stop in front of us and a body soaked in blood was taken out of the ambulance, the sight disturbed me and i felt the world spinning around me and then everything went black.




to be continued.....